Sore throat today so don't feel like writing much.

Back at work tomorrow - will write more when I get back!

Feeling low today . . .

My wonderful wife went out today shopping in the lovely summer sunshine whilst I stayed indoors and baked AGAIN!!! I'm not an agaraphobic but as a contamination OCDer it often looks that way. In the area in which I live it is very littered on the streets and somedays I just don't want to wake the OCD monster up by encountering some of these ambigious looking objects - what if I encountered a used condom or syringe? - I'd rather encounter a bengal tiger who has a toothache!

Think I will do some exercise in a few hours time to boost my seratonin levels and get rid of my tension - that should do the trick!

By the way . . . some of you browsing this site (is there anyone browsing this site?) may wonder what's with the pretentious name; 'Obsidere' - well it's the latin word from which the word OBSESSION derives. Literally translated it means BESEIGED and indeed that's how my weary brain feels sometimes having been tormented over and over again with fearful doubts and 'what if's?'.

Fortunately that little demon that is OCD has been fairly quiet today but then that's largely because I have kept myself out of harms way but just vegging out in my house. Today is the last day of a mid semester break at the college where I teach so it'll be back into the breach next Monday running the OCD gauntlet as I venture back into the outside world.

I have the 'contamination' variant of OCD which in my case tends to focus on a morbid fear of HIV. This flavour of OCD is a rather nasty one (but then again I would say that - I guess we all think we alll have it the worst!) and is quite common ever since AIDS exploded into the publics' psyche in the 80's.

Fred Penzel's article on this AIDS obsessive phobia explains it well!

On reading this article it may sound completely nuts but i asure it is a powerful and destructive fear that almost ruined my life!

This evening I will be relaxing with a beer and enjoying the temporary 'cease fire' that exists between myself and my anxiety on days like this!

Well here it is ; my first entry on my first ever blog!

Today I decided to catch up with the blogging revoloution and fill a noticeable void . . .thus far there has been no sign of an OCD blog.

So after a quick flick through 'Blogging for Beginners' I decided to sign up with xanga and here it is.